Tired of the Routine

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I guess this will be quick,  which will relieve my wife as she is my editor and poster.  I am a techno Neanderthal, and my eyesight since the stroke makes me a bit dyslectic.

Sometimes we all get a bit tired of the routine, and for me, I get into a Solomon’s “Meaningless, meaningless its all Meaningless” (Ecclesiastes 1:2) rut.  He meant that, of course, that without God in the center, whatever you do is meaningless. So I’m of the bent here lately that even with all my prayers and effort, especially with my prisoner status at my small estate.  No matter what I do or not do, or how hard I try to convince myself that there is meaning to my existence or effort, contrary to my earlier posts, ALL is meaningless. My words ring useless to my blogging friends and followers, especially my three kids and, yes, my faithful wife.

 I am trying now to shut up and say little as not to expend the energy. Or, more appropriately, take James’s advice about curtailing my tongue (James 3) and try my best to listen even though my selective hearing screens out a lot of self-regulated nonsense and, at worst, impairs my hearing of the ever small voice of God.  I’m expecting James Earl Jones or a clap of thunder thing, not that almost imagined thing speaking to me from a whisper of wind through the trees.  “Word Of God Speak” at 90 dB because I can’t hear you.

My head is thick and cluttered with thoughts of everything BUT God. Tap me on the shoulder, God, or with a 2 by 4 to the top of the head. Just get my attention and let me know after all the good stuff I have done and strive to do why I am here and what I do next. I’m surrounded as we all are by chaos and stupid (I’m included in the stupid stuff often and probably make someone else’s life a living hell). Let me hear you or at least send me someone like Jesus to understand and me many times.  I need an Apostle or a minister (that I can trust) to have a chance at understanding.  Just give me the truth (fidelity to the original), not the counterfeit dogma of man.  Maybe “I can’t handle the Truth.” LOL,  but I want to give it a shot because what I and the world is doing ain’t working.