Irrelevant? Abandoned?

All,

Finally, at last you get a short post from me in this Easter season. For those who are believers or not in the Jesus Messiah thing, this one might ring home. Many of us depressants feel alone and abandoned. I feel that way not so much by general friends but my inner circle. It’s not that they don’t care, and one of the last standing is my devoted and steadfast wife who takes care of my physical needs, edits this drivel called my blog, and gives me the comfort of true loyal companionship. I/we (meaning maybe my fellow depressants) practice self-isolation because we feel irrelevant. Not belonging or thinking like most.

In my case, without being egotistical, but that same irrelevance and sometimes thinking deeper than most and losing so many in my thoughts.  I have this insatiable habit of text praying for others I don’t go down the list and check boxes, I just wake up or sometimes during twilight times and suddenly pray from my heart for certain individuals originating from my heart with no structured reason or method just an urge.  What’s amazing to me is on several occasions those that I text respond at how my timing was just what was needed at that time to be lifted no matter how strong their faith is.

At Last!  I’ve found a snippet of relevance in a broken world.  SOMEONE NOTICED!  Our Pastor preached from the Gospel according to Mathew on Palm Sunday, the hours before He surrendered to face His fate. Without exception his disciples went to sleep and really abandoned him when his human side needed them the most.  His friends couldn’t be bothered to stay awake, because they were weary from the ministry journey and abandoned Him when he needed THEM (not the other way around).  Then the early in the morning or late that same night he was subjected the most grueling and horrific death. By HIMSELF and his Father let Him go through it to show the world the ultimate act of love.  This is historical fact in the crucifixion and basic facts leading up to it. HE was abandoned really abandoned and he accepted the fate. No one, at least in these days, have a sense of betrayal like he did. 

For all of you who don’t believe that he is the Messiah, ponder this. Have you ever had a worse day than this? Just in earthly terms my fellow depressants if you think that you are going through trials, take comfort in knowing at the very least in the ultimate end you are relevant in a snippet that is your life. I still think I’m irrelevant but return to this story and take heart and that his act brings relief in knowing the gospel story as a Christian and that snippet of relevance when I take time to text that little message. God be with all reach inside and muster up hope. I’m in a mustering time myself and still cling to be relevant. God be with your vacillating spirit.